Dear Ordinary Human...(PLEASE READ)

You may have believed the fairy-tale that life is a constant struggle to get what you want, in a continuous state of  neediness, all the while trying hard to tame your inner wild creature, in order to fit into a normalized (or may I suggest, bastardized?) society.

You may have even successfully adapted to this Matrix and feel like you have somehow “made it” — into an imaginary hierarchy of worthy humans, usually measured by the amount of objects they possess and how far on the materialistic hall of fame they have advanced.  But Truth is a resilient warrior and it keeps crashing into us at the most inconvenient times. It knocks — gentle, smart, motherfucker and firm, at the door of our delusion.

It’s easier to hear its voice early in the morning, before the world wakes up to dim your vision — or late at night, when you can’t sleep with so much unattended demon growling in the closet. And it’s uncomfortable. Can’t even use a pillow. 

Truth pushes you down the stairs of your perception and locks you in the basement of your heart, and in that brief five desperate minutes, between the darkness and the dawn, suspended over everything you wish for and everything you think you are, you get dim flashlights of a life you’ve never tasted, but then why does it feel more real than this one? 

This is one of your many first encounters with your abnormal, extraordinary, truest nature. The Person, Living Breath that came before the Thing, the Subject born before the Object.  Awakening to your true nature is like a gentle hurricane. You have no idea where it started or how it found you — you just wake up one day in the burning heart of paradox, and realize that you are not a mere guardian or administrator of your life, but your own Co-Founder, CEO and Chief Executive Creator. 

And you can make things come and go, appear and disappear, fly or stay. Nobody, nothing owns you anymore. Superhero science has taught me this: Entire universes fit comfortably inside our skulls. Not just one or two but endless universes can be packed into that dark, wet, and bony hollow without breaking it open from the inside. The space in our heads will stretch to accommodate them all. 

The real doorway to the fifth dimension was always right here. Inside. That infinite interior space contains all the divine, the alien, and the unworldly we’ll ever need.

— Grant Morrison

 The reason why we’re fascinated with superheroes is because they are a metaphor of our own selves. Everything  we love and  hate is a reflection of something we already are — in fact or in potential. Our brain is incapable of taking in that which it cannot comprehend. In order to understand anything, anyone — from the simplest concept to the most complicated person — you first need to “make it yours.” 

Every cognition is but a re-cognition. Every thought is in part an appropriation. Every You is already a bit me Me and every Me is, in part, You.

So, when we become acquainted with the life-altering truth that we are connected to the creative motor of the universe, that we’ve been given a brief piece of living canvas to leave our unique footprint on, and that we are in fact the saviors we’ve been waiting for, here’s what the trailer of our lifetime movie sounds like: 

In an ordinary, worn-out world that worships plastic, nature-killing things over heart-beating creation; that crowns flesh puppets with absurd, meaningless, made up titles which somehow give them the right to control our reality, redistribute our natural wealth and misuse our personal power… 

In a world that bows and pledges superficial allegiance to psycho alien robot icons that pass for people — scrolling itself to sleep on pixel pills, seduced by brain-washed entertainment, addicted to life-altering mutant “food”…

In this seemingly hopeless, agonizing world, an ordinary group of  people with extraordinary powers will rise to rage against decay, and jump off the cliffs of insanity with creativity as their only parachute. They will refuse to support the soul-sucking Matrix with their time, effort, money, mind, voice and dreams. Instead, they’ll reimagine and rebuild a world that doesn’t need to be controlled or saved, seduced or manipulated.

Because, just like them, it will run on its own intrinsic power to create, and the belief that yes, they can.  And by the way, there’s nothing you can do to stop them… but you might find it hard not to become them.  Now playing at your local mental theater.To watch, click on your eyes. 

And here are the top superpowers we, Homo Creative Sapiens, have just realized were ours since the beginning of the world, which we can use both ways, in peaceful self-defense, as well as to creatively rebuild a life that doesn’t run on death. The following list is just an excerpt, quoted from our Superhero Manual I managed to get my hands on, to aid with this investigation.

For a more comprehensive version, check with your Higher Self.

1. The Power of Awareness. 

Open your eyes. Look at yourself. Notice the world around you. Observe life. Study aliveness. Breathe in your raw, individable essence. Stare at a wall until you find a way through or around it. Your full presence is the only state in which you can accomplish anything worthwhile.

2. The Power of Choice. 

You don’t work for anyone other than your higher self. Other hierarchies are just imitation. Slavery begins in the mind and it consists in choosing to believe that you have no choice. Choice is the on/off button of our power. Every second of our life is really, just a choice to live it one way or another. There is no ultimate reality. We choose that reality time after time, based on one belief or another, which we also have the power to choose or un-choose. The molten lava at the heart of life is nothing but raw energy. It’s up to us the way we let it burn us.

3. The Power of Originality. 

Whatever you do, “there’s no one you-er than you.” So don’t try to be Batman if you were bitten by a spider. Your ultimate power resides precisely in being faithful to your own essence. You can only touch the extraordinary with your own fingerprints. Don’t compare yourself to other superheroes. If you are here, it means there was a universal demand for you. Scientifically speaking you are as improbable as it gets. This type of alignment doesn’t just happen. You are the universe expressing itself in a unique, unrepeatable way. You haven’t happened before and you will never happen again. Don’t underestimate yourself. You are not a rehearsal.

4. The Power of Purpose. 

We are meaning-making machines. We have the extraordinary ability to create purpose (and pretty much everything else) out of raw energy. And this purpose generates meaning, and this meaning helps us make sense of our life, and it connects us to the whole and helps us realize how we fit in the bigger picture, along with other superheroes. And  this power can be used as a flashlight too, when crawling through our darkest tunnels, because what won’t kill us, will help us generate in turn, more purpose, meaning and more reasons to create. So what’s your manifesto?

5. The Power of Honesty. 

This is a tough one, dear Hero, because it runs on courage. You can’t face your own truth and as a result save yourself, let alone others, without the courage to see yourself for what you are, in both your glory and your misery, your darkness and your light, the entire, indivisible whole equation of You. Look in the mirror. Put your demons on the table. Love what you see and use it all to your benefit.

6. The Power of Spirit. 

You don’t have to be religious to be spiritual. There are all kinds of faith to match each and every superhero in us. The point is, find your god. Whatever it is, whatever form it comes in, find your holy ground. It must be greater than you, enough to make you fall down on your knees and weep and be in awe, and realize you’re great but small, and you cannot survive even one day without the greater power running through your veins. There’s vulnerability in Spirit. And there’s Spirit in you. Don’t let cynicism eat you alive. It’s when Spirit is free to move through you that miracles are free to happen.

7. The Power of Beauty. 

Superheros don’t dig this one. During the first years of following their call, they love to wear masks. They think they’re being cautious and protective of their mission, but really, they’re afraid. Greatness is worse than ghosts. It scares the shit out of our people. This is every superhero’s weakness — not kryptonite or anti-heroes — but their own beauty. I know you are embarrassed to even say the word out loud. I wish you understood that beauty saves. Authentic beauty awakens the beauty in others. I wish you removed your plastic face and showed me both, your dead scars and your glory. We are liberated by contemplating our magical reflection in other imperfect mirrors. Your not-enoughness might be good enough for me.

8. The Power of Healing. 

You are your own doctor. You’d think this would be obvious by now, but so often Superheroes like us, doubt their own powers and rely on superficial charlatans, gadgets or artifacts to save them from themselves. A true healer helps you heal yourself. And you do so by first becoming aware of that Self (go back to #1 — all roads lead back to Rome). Sickness (of mind and body and spirit) doesn’t happen by chance. It’s not natural — health and aliveness are. So if you’re sick the first thing you should look for is the cause, not kill the symptoms. Your pain is a messenger. Don’t silence it. Instead, stare back into the darkness and fix the real problem. You already come equipped with this self-healing superpower. Your body knows exactly what to do. You just need to give it the space and time it needs to get itself together. Just remember the Bullshit Test for Healers found on page 1,943 of our Superhero Manual: Whoever guides you along your road to healing, must, in the same breath, guide you back to yourself. Ultimately, only you can switch yourself back to life. 

9. The Power of Resilience.

 You can’t give up on something that your heart is still rooting for, no matter how hard the fall is. Your heart is your ultimate master. It knows the things the mind doesn’t yet have an answer for. It leads the way out of your darkest moments. It’s your one and only Chief of Staff. You are built to thrive under any circumstances as long as you use your heart as the compass. You’re not a victim, not even a survivor, you’re a creator, damnit.

10. The Power of Creativity. Creativity is your operating system. It’s a free app that came with your original superhero software. It’s your intrinsic individual ability to face and respond to the uncertainty and mysteries of life, your essential human birthright, your fuel for rebelling against decay, your irregular heartbeats and your mind’s engine. It is the basic force of life, right after love. You are creatively responsible for the effective use of all your other superpowers.

11. The Power of Love. Yes: L O V E !!!💕

 “At the risk of sounding ridiculous, let me say that real revolutionaries are guided by a great feeling of love,” said once El Che Guevara. "All your superpowers are worthless without kindness. If you can’t see the God in others, it means you’ve missed it in yourself."

Love is perhaps the first and foremost superpower. We like to leave it for the end, so we remember. Love is the most primordial revolution of the spirit. It’s the first breath of life, our first true state of being. It saves, mostly because it is the only element in the universe that exists in and of itself. Everything else has a reason, a point, a purpose, a plan to get your Superhero ass from A to B. Love’s ultimate reason is “Because.” 

Unlike all the other superpowers you’ve been gifted, love is the only one that has no possible logical explanation or whose deepest essence cannot answer to Why. “It believes all things, hopes for all things, waits for all things and endures all things.” (1 Corinthians 13).

 Do you know when exactly you stop being a child and sweep your superpowers under the rug of disbelief? The moment you cease to believe that you are loved and as such, capable of anything. They call this sad realization adulthood, but really, it’s just death, disguised as seriousness… Your inner child understands that life — which runs on love and feasts on creativity — is on your side, and the whole universe conspires with you, not against you, to help you spread that wild, messy, crazy love through your own story. I say it’s time to realize that our inner superhero hopeful child never died, and he or she still owns powers more useful and life-changing than flying or shooting spiderweb around. Powers that, if understood, practiced and used, can shatter our stagnant perception of a victimized reality and help us re-create ourselves from the inside out. 

In any case, dear Extraordinary and Abnormal Human Thing with Eyes,  The point is that you’re needed, wanted, missed on Earth… I’m just a wordy messenger they sent to ask you to put your cape back on and come the hell back home.   {HOMO CREATIVE SAPIENS}    

Follow your heart:

https://youtu.be/3yFiqdCjNMk

HEALING YOURSELF OF THE TRAUMA WITHIN

The Mirror of Perception

Every person and situation in our lives is a mirror. They reflect to us our perception of Reality, and the bigger picture of what we are trying to Learn about Self.  This means what we love or hate or fear “out there”, or in another, is what we really love or hate or fear withIN. We wouldn’t know hate and/or fear  if we didn’t have it in our possession, withIN.

 

The Only Way Out is Through

We learn, for the most part, that “God” resides somewhere outside of ourselves, dictating our Lives in some way, shape or form. But as we evolve, our preconceived ideas of what that means are  literally being turned upside-down.  We are seeing  that we are the “God” of our own individual Universe, the Divine creators of our own Reality, shaped by our physical, psychological, emotional, and spiritual bodies. We are realizing that “God” is  our Higher Self  – our connectedness –  and  putting our Trust and Faith into this realization. From here, we can see that the drama of our trauma doesn’t have to be so dramatic after all, as it’s leading us to the ultimate prize of release, letting go  –  Acceptance.

 

The most important thing to remember about dealing with trauma is that, at a fundamental level, we are searching for a way to have our Emotional needs met, in order to move on. We are ultimately trying to find a Safe emotional space where we can be  comfortable with our experience and  our  emotions, and feel comfortable expressing them.

 

THIS POINT IS DEAD ON......

 

While we are in this process we must  keep in mind that our emotional needs aren’t “unhealthy”  – they are a Truth of this Reality –  but  we may be avoiding them, or trying to meet them in an “unhealthy” (and unsatisfying) way by doing harm to Self or others. This is a very common theme;  we  project these emotional needs onto others and expect them to fulfil us…  which is, of course, quite impossible. It just  sets us (and them) up for “failure”,  which causes us (and them) to be traumatized all over again.  The people in our lives  can only provide  a Loving support system while  we work through our emotions.

 

Ultimately, Self is the only one who is experiencing Self’s emotions, so  in order to Heal we must meet our OWN emotional needs. As we put our Trust and Faith in our Higher Self,  we can begin to work with the damage and confusion on a more Spiritual level, which brings significantly more accessible results. When we begin to look withIN, we  can begin to be Honest with ourselves about our emotional needs  and how these needs effect our Lives in the bigger picture.

 

In order to transcend the negativity we perceive “out there” we have to Love it into submission, right “in here”. Our  seemingly negative emotions reflect  an absence of  the energy of Love, so  in order to rid ourselves of them, we must LOVE them,  shining a light on the Shadows within.  From there, we begin to forget the negativity surrounding our trauma and can approach it from either a Loving standpoint or, even better, we can get to a place where we no longer put energy into it at ALL, as we (finally) move forward.

 

It takes great commitment and courage to face what one truly hates and/or fears  withIN. These feelings are extremely uncomfortable.  The illusion tells us that we are incomplete, fragmented, or broken but the Truth is that we can never be these things in Spirit. It’s only our judgment that tells us our emotions are “wrong”.

 

But it’s from this place of great vulnerability that we find our greatest Strength.  Heaven is a mindset and a way of BEing, rather than  a place or an emotion that can be met by another. When we stop  repeating our cycles of emotional trauma and  projecting  our emotions outwardly, we stop  doing harm to ourselves and others, and create  peace and safety withIN ourselves.

 

When we fill our Shadows with light, they  all but disappear.  

 

Embracing a  process of Healing  opens up an  emotional vastness that covers all ends of the spiritual and emotional spectrum. This is where we really begin to heal from the pain and trauma caused by this Reality. By understanding and  Loving  our entire spiritual and emotional body, we are able to Connect with Self and others in a most profound and expansive way. The Gift, and what makes it worth the process, is our own personal brand of Heaven that comes from withIN and then transforms our reality (without).

 

 

 

 

 

In Retrospect

Because Words Carry A Vibration...VERBAL AND WRITTEN - DRAFT

Those who are verbal abusers chronically see themselves as victims. 

 

****Their sense of themselves as victims is deeply entrenched and feel that their time invested in this relationship needs self radification****

 

They may feel “the victim” of many many things, including being inconvenienced, or their needs not met.  It is from their self-engendered victim-status that blame flows so naturally; from blame, the anger/rage; from the anger/rage, the rationalization of aggressive/abusive responses. They put it all back on you.

 

 

It’s also the case that once abusive individuals have established a pattern of their self-perceived victimization, their threshold for feeling subsequently victimized decreases; now, it takes less and less for them to feel victimized, perhaps only a minor disappointment or frustration. As time goes on, it becomes VERY EVIDENT AND DEFINED.

 

This is why many abusive individuals can find almost any basis to complain, to feel slighted, thereby tripping (and licensing) their abusiveness. 

 

Abusive individuals, at bottom, feel entitled not to be burdened by whatever feels burdensome to them. It is your job, your responsibility, to alleviate their burden.

 

• Respond to texts on demand (not responding or not responding fast enough to their satisfaction)

> attempt to demand contact from you, typically using a manipulative way to do this so you will respond, usually with sympathy or urgency.

 

And when you don't respond...WITHHOLDING, THREATS AND PERCEIVED ASSUMPTIONS AND DEMEANING HURTFUL, SARCASTIC WORDS WILL COME AS THE RESPONSE.


 

 

Your failure to do so, from their self-centered perspective, is an abdication of your duty, a form of betrayal. There are also threats to non-response, or ways in which they demean you verbally, in a text or on social media.

 

 

 

 

 

Not surprisingly, many abusive individuals tend to think in paranoid and problematically rigid ways.






INSECURITIES - ASSUMPTIONS

ASSUMPTIONS OF INSECURITY
 

They tend to RIDGIDLY ATTRIBUTE MALICE to those who disappoint them, OR ACTUALLY POINT OUT WHAT IT IS THEY ARE DOING OR BEING.

ACCUSATION BASED ON JEALOUS ASSUMPTIONS OF INSECURITY
 

 

 

Deploying spectacular powers of rationalization and projection, they see themselves ironically (and, of course, conveniently) habitually as victim—as the betrayed, exploited party—a warped perception that ratchets up their anger, lubricating their impending abusive response.  

 

 

Sometimes underlying abandonment issues (including borderline personality disorder) fuel the possessive/controlling behaviors of abusive individuals.
 

TRUST - A new way to see it

If we are wanting to change the world, we must UNLEARN what we have been taught, told and believe to be truth.

Trust is one thing that has been misconstrued in definition for so many reasons. It is a demand upon another to meet an expectation. In setting expectations from a person up front, you are in turn placing a need for yourself upon another.

Consider a new way to remove judgment, expectation and personal needs from relationships - whether it be friends, family, significant others or spouses with this quote from Neal Donald Walsch:

...that trust is not necessary when you don't want or
need anything.

If you are wondering whether you can "trust" someone,
look closely at what it is you think you need or want
from them. When you need or want nothing, trust is
not an issue.

And, of course, there is nothing that you do need,
from anybody, given Who and What You Are. You
are an expression of Divinity Itself, and Divinity is
your Source.

Thinking that you "need" anything, given that this is so,
would be nothing more than a misunderstanding.

There is too much "poor me" "what about me" "what can you do for me" expectations from others close to you, that are constantly on demand to be fulfilled. And because it becomes a defined NEED and expectation from someone else, when another person "fails" to meet this obligation requirement, it can cause negative emotions as a projection onto the other person, even end a relationship, due to a need not met. Seems very limited and restricting, right?

Trust that failed when defined can consist of many scenarios. Then we begin to judge by comparing it to other things that cause mistrust and how BADLY it rates as a projection of wrongdoing based on our societal perceptions. The thing that caused the perceived lack of trust then becomes judged. This is how we determine how we will treat the other person;  based on the severity of this perception.

Failed trust is also handled differently for every person in their life as well. Trust defined as one thing for a spouse can mean another version and expectation they need from their child.

If their child continually lies when confronted, and repeats the pattern over and over, with consequences, but the child continues to lie about stealing, things they did or did not do, etc...does the parent to end the relationship with the child?

They are a child, they say. They are learning. Are we still not learning even as adults? Everyday? We are still growing and becoming as individuals SEPARATE from our relationships.

YES WE ARE.

To end a relationship solely based on a lack of trust from another is giving up because  someone "failed" to meet your expectations. This in turn limits you to TRUST again. Limits you to receiving the compassion and gifts from the whole person you let go who did not meet this one expectation. How limiting is this reasoning? Remember, YOU (or societies perception) of the mis-trust has now defined and ruled the outcome.

The illusions we create only in our mind can leave us in the illusion, or allow us the freedom of compassion and love again. It is a choice. But only for those willing to give up their old beliefs and standards, which no longer serve if we are to evolve to a higher place of self.

I've Accepted the Challenge!

THE TURNING POINT...

The verbal, psychological, and emotional abuse, control manipulation all my life, that I allowed myself to endure were bad. Really bad.

But the things I’ve allowed to change in my mind and heart because of it are horrid beyond words today...

Traumatic Experiences and HEALING.

The traumatic experiences that result in the most damaged, negative belief filled programming in an individual's subconscious mind  are prolonged and repeated, sometimes extending over years of a person's life.

NATURAL VS HUMAN

Made prolonged stressors,  deliberately inflicted by people, are far harder to bear than accidents or natural disasters. Most people who seek mental health treatment for trauma have been victims of violently inflicted wounds dealt by a person.

If this was done deliberately, in the context of an ongoing relationship, the problems are increased. The worst situation is when the injury is caused deliberately in a relationship with a person on whom the victim is dependent---most specifically a  parent-child relationship or partner/spouse.

This can take anywhere from a month to years to heal at the Subconscious level, depending.on his severe and prolonged the emotional and/or verbal attacks occured.

Programmed negative beliefs must.go through several sessions of hypnosis/psycho therapy, EFT, or other methods that tap into the Subconscious to reprogram new beliefs which replace the old.

HEALING THYSELF.

Reprocussions of the Past...

Affect your future relationships.

                        TRUTH.

IF emotions are shoved aside and not resolved and you truly moved on...

Take time to heal. The last thing you want is what you just endured by another...BREAK THE PATTERN...

Make time for you.  I know this to be true.