Numerology...Personality Number 9

Your Personality number is 9

...also am a Lifepath 9....

 

You have an impressive and aristocratic bearing. No matter how tall you are, you appear noble and upright. You are very much in control of the image you send out to others.

Many actors, dancers, and other performers have a 9 Personality Number.

 

You are elegant, graceful, and charismatic. Many admire you. You have the kind of stature that pulls people to you or repels them intensely. Some are jealous of you and may seek to belittle you.

You may encourage this to some extent by the amount of arrogance you radiate.

 

This is a caution for all 9 Personalities - they are sometimes aloof and hold themselves above the world. Your challenge is to come down to earth with your fellow man.

Conversely, you have a great compassion for humanity and want to dedicate yourself to improving the lot of others.

You are better when dealing with the trials of the many than the trouble of a single person. You are more capable of working on the grand scale, addressing the needs of society, than on a one-to-one basis.

You are kind and sympathetic, helpful and compassionate.

Behind the controlled and calm facade, you are sensitive, vulnerable and emotional.

You have excellent taste. There is a good deal of artistic talent in you that shows in your home environment and your clothing. You tend to see yourself as a guardian of society, a benevolent leader, guiding and directing your community toward a better world.

Moving From EGO to LOVE in Relationships That End

Breaking the Cycle of Bad Relationships

By Marcia Sirota MD

A good relationship has three functions: it should make both partners happy; it should make them feel good about themselves and it should bring out the best in both.If one or more of these functions aren’t being fulfilled, the relationship by definition is problematic.

I like this article, merely because it defines where it has taken me today in relationships, and how I have allowed myself to be affected by those experiences.

So. I would like to add a fourth function that is CRITICAL in success in any relationship. A secure attachment. 

Marcia explains below what causes us to react in certain ways in our relationships that are unhealthy...which has everything to do with our lack of secure attachments in early childhood. A good relationship will also provide a secure attachment to each other...but as described below, childhood has much to do with gaining a secure attachment in order to be successful in giving one in our future relationships.

Many people grow up in happy, loving families where they see their parents treating each-other with care and respect. As children, they are given all the love and affirmation they need in order to grow up confident and secure. These people have little trouble forming healthy, happy romantic relationships.

Those individuals whose parents were in conflict, or were neglectful or even abusive to the children are lacking in the good foundation that the former group was able to establish. Some of these people fear closeness because being open and vulnerable could mean being hurt or rejected. Their ambivalence around intimacy leads them to choose partners who are unavailable or unable to commit.

Some people expect their romantic partner to treat them the way their parents did, and enter into their relationships defensive or even somewhat hostile toward their innocent and unknowing partner. On the other hand, many people from bad childhoods will choose a partner who is as cruel or rejecting as their parents were.

They do this for a few reasons: people go for what is familiar even if it’s hurtful, because it’s less anxiety-provoking than something new and unknown. They will also stay with a hurtful partner out of insecurity and the fear of being alone.

Another reason why people choose partners who resemble their parents is out of what Freud calls the “repetition compulsion.” This is an unconscious attempt to vicariously heal their parent-child relationship through their current one. The inner wish is that by transforming a rejecting or abusive partner into a loving, accepting one they’ll also somehow heal the emotional wounds of their childhood.

Unfortunately, this doesn’t work because for one, the chances of making someone change are slim to none. Secondly, even if this person were to change, the truth is that no relationship in the present can heal the emotional wounds created in the past. The person engaging in the repetition compulsion will remain in a bad relationship, hoping unsuccessfully that things will get better and suffering enormously in the process.

If you find yourself going in and out of frustrating, dissatisfying relationships, the solution is to see that either you’ve been continually choosing the wrong partner or that you’ve been projecting the qualities of your parents onto someone who in reality, is nothing like these people. You also need to recognize that your fear of being alone is based on a lack of self-confidence and self-love. But also perhaps the lack of what it feels like to have a secure attachment.

In order to be in a satisfying, non-conflictual relationship it’s essential to heal the emotional wounds you’ve been carrying. You’ll need to face the losses you experienced during childhood and past relationships that you experienced the same trauma from, and actively grieve them until you can let go of whatever pain or anger you’ve been carrying. This will enable you to approach a partner without the unconscious expectation that they’ll hurt or reject you.

Another reason why people choose partners who resemble their parents is out of what Freud calls the “repetition compulsion.” This is an unconscious attempt to vicariously heal their parent-child relationship through their current one. The inner wish is that by transforming a rejecting or abusive partner into a loving, accepting one they’ll also somehow heal the emotional wounds of their childhood.

Unfortunately, this doesn’t work because for one, the chances of making someone change are slim to none. Secondly, even if this person were to change, the truth is that no relationship in the present can heal the emotional wounds created in the past. The person engaging in the repetition compulsion will remain in a bad relationship, hoping unsuccessfully that things will get better and suffering enormously in the process.

You’ll need to learn how to give yourself the love, affirmation and protection that was lacking in the past, and this will enable you to feel less afraid of rejection, and to trust that you can be comfortable on your own. Grieving your losses and developing self-love will result in your letting go of the need to choose unavailable partners or to engage in the repetition-compulsion.

By taking responsibility for dealing with your emotional issues, you’ll make it possible to enter into relationships unburdened by the fears, beliefs or expectations created by the wounds of the past. Healing yourself will free you to choose loving, caring partners who, like you, are looking for meaningful companionship and intimacy.

Taking charge. Moving to peace with my past so it does not affect all the joy, happiness and love in the PRESENT MOMENT.

Higher Vibrations - In Relationships

 

 

Your limits to truly loving another is your own Self Love. 

 This is what matters.  The ability to ACCEPT  and RECOGNIZE yourself and the situations that limit you, and others from experiencing your true core essence of Self outside of ego construct in this false reality.

The I Am will never have the beauty of returning to full consciousness. This is the loss we mourn to return to. 

It places us back in alignment with the universe in harmony and with others that have awakened to their full resonance being. 

In denial of inner self work of Trauma? In this life or past?

There will be a loss of any relationship, a moral and ethical division when vibrations do not match between them will occur. 

One who has gone through the most suffering within and has come out on the other side a fully authentic expression of Self and vibration, will not fall back into any form other than what it has returned to. Higher vibration "stasis" outside of the false construct illusion by  re-membering I AM.

The denial of a need to change is a grandioso false self fixated on changing all others and the world around them. If the heart cannot heal, how can you love another if you truly deny this love for yourself to be present within yourself first???

When you know you are not living your life's path, and becomes very uncomfortable... to me it felt like someone else's life. A certain awareness provides you with the message that change needs to occur, or you will become so lost that it may take a long time to get back to your True Self. There are many obstacles in the way, breaking through them is key.  Only YOU. ALONE will know what needs healed and YOU ALONE must do the work.

It has taken 9 years for me this time around. I plan to stay and hold steadfast in boundaries and affirmation to any benevolent energies attempting to hijack mine.

I've made very large strides to get where I need to "begin again". Determination and perseverance allowed me to break down the obstacles. I have achieved the sought after this place in which I must be for myself at this time, so the flow of all positive manifested desires for my True Self. 

Why Life is Worth Living...

My first, my oldest... she's a challenge and a gift all rolled into perfection. I love her so much it hurts. My Chick. Loving me in all my flaws.

Destination: Healer.

What will happen to the healers once everyone is healed?

 

In a time of great planetary transformation, great upheaval, great healing and ‘up-leveling’ we see more healers rising from their own ancestral memories, own archaic soul memories as healers. I am seeing more and more healing modalities pouring through humanity all the time. We are being given modalities for healing our DNA for integrating our higher expressions of self into the earth body, for healing past emotional trauma, healing and releasing past life trauma and karma, we are undergoing spiritual surgery, template level re-organization, we are witnessing the up-rising of the feminine, the healing of the collective feminine, and the shifting of culture.

 

If you are alive today, take heart. You are a warrior of the soul. You incarnated into this physical vehicle you call a body because you knew the beautiful thrill of this 4th dimensional existence and your soul knew and wanted a front seat for the amazing healing and transformation we are now beholding.

 

In the past, the village had one healer, or a few. And they would never call themselves the healer, they would never call themselves the shaman- only would they be called such a name by their community. But the time has call to call yourself. The time has come to claim your true identity, to name yourself. Yes, I am the healer. Yes, I am the shaman of my soul, ushering myself between dimensions, reclaiming the lost fragments of who I really am, altering my own state like a finely crafted dial on a beautiful physical mechanism holding my most precious of spirit. Take heart warrior spirit, you are the healer. You are every bit the healer.

 

You are now healing with sound, you are healing with food, you are speaking to the water, you are speaking to the earth, you are communicating with the elements, you are recognising your soul family who may not inhabit physical human forms, you are at one with the animals, you peer into your own eyes in the bathroom mirror and see the cosmos within yourself. Yes, you are the healer. And it is time. The time has come for you to step forth as the great healer of your own life, if you have not already, and to recognize yourself as such. To certify YOURSELF, which is a privilege no one else can have- only you can certify yourself and grant yourself the power of healing, for self and for others.

 

As we see humanity moving towards a collective population of healers, a culture of healers, a world of healers, the question arises, what is the fate for us? Will we be healers forever? Will our job one day end?

 

For light-workers and healers of all types, we are the spiritual equivalent of the volunteers who go and rescue the oil laden ducks after a poisonous devastating oil spill. We are on the front lines, we are in the thick of it. We are clearing out the darkest of distortions, the heaviest of self-loathing, the depths of despair and guilt, the greatest extent of having forgotten who we really are. As healers, by identifying ourselves as healers, as light-workers, we therefore tune ourselves into this reality, willingly, intentionally, volunteering to become a master artist, a master practitioner in the very medium itself of light. We chose this task, this creation, this story, this adventure, this remembering. We, through our love, through our hands, through our touch, through our modalities, through our intentions, our art, our life, we are literally conducting light through our own vessels into this plane to illuminate every point on this infinite grid of consciousness.

 

I have seen that the future of healing is also the past. You see, there was a time far in the past, but if you can allow yourself to understand, this construct of ‘past’ is also the future. Time is not linear, it is cyclical, and we are rounding a new resonance in this spiral. Yes, we are returning to our rightful place in existence- the place of our ancestors and the place of our descendants. One day the tide of pure light will, in a sense, completely tip and when it does, the distortion, the forgetfulness, the shame, the hindrance of the spirit, will be gone; And then what of the healers?

Once we have tuned fully into this, what will the healers then do? We will do what we have always done. We must understand that healing is not the fixing of something broken, it is the integration of the parts back into the whole. And this is the paradox, stop waiting. There is no waiting. There is no peak. Everything in creation is always expanding, infinitely expanding. There is only ever more healing to be had. And once the light is allowed to pour through un-restricted, we can be freed of our work with the sad energy of distortion.

 

How do we know this? We need look no further than the myriad of other races and civilizations throughout the universe to catch a glimpse of the imminent reality of more natural, expansive, and higher-vibrational ways of existing. Do you not think that the Sirians, the Arcturians, the Angelic realm, the Pleiadians, and so on, do you not think they themselves are also healers? Of course they are.

 

In the constant unfoldment and expansion of the universe, there is ALWAYS more. I repeat: there is ALWAYS MORE. There is always more expansion; there is always more healing in the sense that there is always more to discover and to integrate with the understanding that all the exotic far reaches of existence are still always parts of the self. “Healing does not happen by the denial of things but with the integration of things.”

 

The future of healing is pure creativity. The future of healing is play. The future of healing is exploration. The future of healing is the natural state of being in control of one’s reality and putting things out of balance just to put them back, just because you can. This is what humanity has long identified as ‘God’ or ‘Gods’, but it is your true nature as a facet of God.

Rest assured, in the future, which is the past, we as past Venusians, past Atlantians, past Mayans, past this that or whatever, we as HUMANS as spirits in whatever form will only ever find our role as healers ever more exciting, ever more artistic, ever more expansive and creative and necessary.

Rest assured warrior spirits, rest assured heart warriors, your time is never ‘coming’ your time is always now. You may give yourself permission to choose yourself. Every part of your being is necessary and profoundly perfect and we thank you for your light.

#truth

I've Accepted the Challenge!

Numerology. .Birth Day Number 15

Your Birth Day number is 15

You are highly creative and artistic. You also have a gift for languages. No matter what you do as a profession, your love tends to be the arts, especially the visual arts, such as painting, calligraphy, or sculpture.

There is a yearning within you to ground within the family or community structure, but there is a hint of wanderlust, too, which makes grounding difficult. You want the best in your life, and you strive for it.

Commitment to relationships - especially home and marriage - is a central issue in your life. You must be willing to bring out the best in your partner, or the place you live. In the same way, you must truly commit to your own abilities - make the most of them! Honor your talent and cultivate it with hard work and refinement.

You are very sensitive. Criticism has a very negative effect on you.

For this reason, you tend to support others to the point of denying yourself.

You want to live according to the Golden Rule, which is that you treat others as you would want to be treated.

You are generous and understanding. As a parent, you are devoted to your children and can maintain stability and love within the family.

You tend to be demonstrative in your affections. You are responsible but keep your own counsel and make your own decisions.

You probably look young for your age. 

In addition to your artistic talent, you possess sound business and financial instincts.

You tend to be thorough and conscientious in your approach to business, traits that pay off in the long run.

You must beware of becoming too soft in relationships. People can see you as an easy mark, or abuse your well-worn shoulder, upon which many tears have been shed. Be more than a willing ear.

You have considerable talent as a healer, but need to develop the actual tools of the healing vocation in order to truly help others.

You are multi-talented and with focus and determination, you have great potential for success.